I _______ For Love

Yesterday I ran 5.28 miles, which is the longest I’ve run in … 10 years? I’ve been drawn more to running in recent years. This started mainly because running has been a life-long thorn in my ass. My first memory is one of loving sports. My second is of hating running. A couple years ago, I vowed to improve my running technique from the ground up just so I would no longer dread every single running workout at the gym. Anything with more than a 200m jog would give me stomach cramps just at the thought. All my work tweaking technique and changing my perception of running has paid off. But it has taken me years. I still have a ways to go.

So, I’ve been running longer distances lately. And this running thing is finally starting to become the therapeutic, meditative practice I always suspected it could be. Physically and mentally I was never at a place where I could enjoy that part, and now I feel I’ve crossed over into new territory – a beautiful, open trail of possibility. I still feel I have to fight to get to that feeling. It doesn’t come easily for me. Or so I thought until yesterday.

I ran yesterday purely for therapy when usually I run to train and to practice. But yesterday, I needed to exhaust myself in hopes of feeling some sort of calm. The upset I feel about Sean comes in waves, but it’s underlying. The Orlando incident made me feel even less in control of anything. But I figured during a run maybe I could just control one foot in front of the next. Not that I need to control much of anything, but that run immediately grounded my thoughts through solitude and movement. Within the rhythm of my stride and breath, I suddenly felt connected to a thread of all the good within me that connects to all of the good in everything else. And because Sean was so loving, and because love is the antithesis of what happened in Orlando (and what could have happened in Santa Monica) I could only think: I Run for Love. When I instantly felt better thinking that, I knew it was true. Love is the truth.

I run for love. I run for me. I run for my girls. I run for Julio. I run for Sean. I run for 50 humans. And 50 families. I run for everyone who also believes that love is the only way, and who feels this thread I’m talking about and knows it without debate or logistics or anything else that might muddle the pureness of this truth. I run for you. I run for whoever (fill in the blank) for love, too.


Tuesday’s Workout

5 Sets @ 75% C&J
2 Clean pulls
1 Hang clean (Mid-thigh)

Front squats (60-65% FS or +3-5)
Back squats
–5min Cap–

3 RFQR on the 4:00
30sec Bike for cal
15 Knees to elbows
Max Balancing pivot reverses
–2min Cap each round–

Wednesday’s Workout

5 Sets @ 75% C&J
2 Jerk drives
1 Split jerk

10 Wallballs (20/14)
10 Kipping CTB pullups
5 Deadlifts (70-75%)
10 Alt pistols


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