Just Sit There
I remember sitting for 10 minutes and feeling like my brain was in a blender. I remember how much all I could think about was wanting to be done. I remember not being able to get through the first couple of minutes without starting to sweat and fidget. There was nothing “meditative” about it.
I stuck with it on and off for a couple of years. Usually during the Challenge there would be a related Lifestyle practice and I’d pick it up, only to drop it again when the Challenge ended. I liked it, and I couldn’t stick to it.
Then this year, for some reason unknown to me, it stuck. I started doing it right before the New Year Challenge, just to get primed. I started sitting ten minutes a day. Every day. Then 12 minutes, then 15. Over the next several months I got up to 25, 30, even 40 minutes at a time. And I liked it a lot. I found groups to sit and meditate with. I even helped start a new group with some friends that now sits together every Sunday.
What’s funny is that I can’t tell you why. I just kept coming back to it. I didn’t freak out about it when I stopped, and I didn’t pre-judge it when I started again. And finally it sprouted roots and I have done it practically every day for the last 9 months.
Some things just take time. Even if you know somewhere they’re important to you. Dropping them doesn’t mean they’re gone. It just mean you dropped them. You just have to keep picking them up.
That was really the only answer. What should I do if I want to sit every day? Sit every day. And if I miss a day? Sit the next day. We’ll look for complex solutions that often cause us to miss the simple one right in front of our face. Just keep coming back.
Originally posted on 10/1/2014 in the Whole Life Challenge Fall 2014 blog
A) For time
30 Sandbag front squats
B) 5 Rounds for quality on the 4:00
Max Effort Bench press (BW / ⅔ BW)
**40sec cap each round**
And Coming Friday
7 Hang squat cleans (155/105)
Then, 50 Burpees