Life’s Too Short For Crazy Brain


4×4 100 m Franklin hill on :90. 3 mins between sets.

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A) EMOM 10 for load and reps:
even mins :30 max H. Sq. Cl @ ~ 70% 1RM Sq. Cl.
odd mins :30 max dips
B) 5 rds for quality of:
10 tempo pushups 3:1:1
20 Hollow Rocks
– 10 min cutoff
C) “Squatting Annie”
50-40-30-20-10 of:
SquatsThe older I get the less tolerance I have for things that don’t feel good. That doesn’t mean I don’t want to work hard or I avoid uncomfortable experiences, but it does mean that when I’m done with those moments I want to feel something productive and positive about the overall experience.

For example, last year I got really into powerlifting. I love getting strong and I love lifting weights. But I’m definitely edging in on the “mature athlete” category and my body just isn’t so cooperative all the time anymore. So as much as my mind and ego wanted to squat a ton of weight, my body wasn’t very willing. And every time I failed at a lift it resulted in me thinking all sorts of horrible things about myself (aka “crazy brain”). That constant dissonance between what I wanted and what I was trying to force myself to do became unpleasant. Training became unpleasant. It just didn’t feel good anymore – mentally or physically.

And eventually I realized, if it doesn’t feel good, I’m just not doing it. If my experience of squat day is to be miserable, self-judging, and cranky EVERY TIME. Then wow, maybe I should just do something else?

I think our minds and bodies are linked in so many ways, and I don’t think the most effective training can possibly take place when you’re in a crappy mental space. So, as I see it, if there’s an activity that just doesn’t ever feel productive, you’ve got two options:

1) Figure out how to let go of whatever yucky thoughts/judgements/issues you’ve got and see the activity as positive.
2) Quit doing the same thing in the same head space and expecting it to be different. Just move on.

For me, for #1 to work, I’d have to let go of thinking I could still squat what I “used to squat.” While it makes total logical sense, enacting that turns out to be kind of hard for me, especially when I’m logging numbers and following programs and constantly feeling like I’m not doing what I “should.” And really I just want to be fit and live to 100. I don’t have to squat 200+ pounds to make that happen, so maybe all the heavy squatting was a strange goal to be focused on anyway? So for me, while I do still squat on occasion, I find kettlebells to be a more fitting method of weight training these days, for my body and for my goals. Plus those type of metcon-centric workouts are far less likely to trigger the aforementioned crazy brain.

‘Cause life’s too short for crazy brain. Life’s too short to spend your time judging yourself, wishing yourself different, or doing anything that doesn’t have you feel like you’ve moved forward in a positive way. So either figure out how to feel good about everything you’re doing, or find the things that fit you.

Becca Borawski served as Program Director at CFLA for seven years and is now part of the extended coaching family. She is the managing editor for Breaking Muscle, a website designed for real athletes and real coaches. She lives in Portland, Oregon and is most likely preparing a paleo meal at this very moment.

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