Who I am


Thursday’s Workout (no CAP)
AMRAP 30
200m Run
15 Box Jumps (20”)
12 Sit ups
9 KB snatches – alternating arm (24/16)
6 Pull ups

…and coming Friday (CAP)
3 Rounds:
3 min max Clean and Jerks (155/105)
Rest 1 min
3 min max Double unders
Rest 2 min

Two scores — Number of Clean & Jerks and number of Double undersI went out to grab dinner the other night at one of my favorite joints, The Counter. Great burgers, sweet potato fries, sometimes even a delicious shake. I ran into someone I knew who was with someone I didn’t know. When I was introduced as a CrossFit guy, this new acquaintance asked (surprisedly) “What are YOU doing HERE?!” I’m sure he was half joking, but it made me think of the struggle we all face with what we think we are supposed to do, and what people think is required to be “fit.”

I thought back over my weekend and Saturday afternoon lazing in the afternoon sun sitting on the trunk of my car in the parking lot of Wally’s Cheese Box eating grilled cheese sandwiches, a bag of delicious chocolate sandwich cookies sitting next to me, waiting to be enjoyed. Do I want to be healthy? Would I give that up?

Then it hit me. What I’m concerned about is optimal health and fitness for ME. And what does “optimal” mean? It means incorporating who I am, what I want, what’s important to me, what’s not, what I’m willing to give up, what I’m not willing to give up and what I want it all to look like into my choices and actions. The grilled cheese sandwich and the chocolate sandwich cookies aren’t the “bad” parts of my life that I have to balance out by engaging in the “good” parts of my life, like going to the gym and denying myself other pleasures. ALL of those things are a part of my life. None of them are “bad” and none of them are “good.” I just look at who I am, what I want, what’s important to me, what’s not, what I’m willing to give up, what I’m not willing to give up and what I want it all to look like and know if I’m keeping it balance or not.

I’m never going to want to give up celebrating, drinking wine, or eating greasy, fried foods and baked delicious things. Where it would break down for me would be in only considering THOSE parts and not the health, vitality and longevity that I want to have to enjoy those things. Giving up my health and vitality would be as big of a let down for me as giving up my baked delicious things. So who I am, what I want, what’s important to me, what’s not, what I’m willing to give up, what I’m not willing to give up and what I want it all to look like keeps it all in check. It’s freedom from the good/bad distinction. I don’t have to struggle with what I should and shouldn’t do. I don’t even have to refer to should or shouldn’t, bad or good. I refer to who I am, what I want, what’s important to me, what’s not, what I’m willing to give up, what I’m not willing to give up and what I want it all to look like. I don’t have to struggle with “I can” or “I can’t.” That doesn’t mean I do everything that comes to mind, it just means that I can be empowered by taking actions that fulfill on what, at the end, I wanted it all to look like.

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