Putting My Butt on the Pillow
For about 7 months now I’ve been sitting doing zen meditation pretty much daily. One of the hardest things about doing something like it is the constant thought that I’m doing it wrong. No one can really check my form and make adjustments. I can read and chat with people but when it comes down to doing it, no one can really watch me.
I was listening to a talk about it yesterday and the most important thing the speaker said (for me right now) is that you can’t really do it wrong. Really the only way to botch it is not to do it. That’s pretty much the ONLY way, at least right now, to get it wrong.
He said not to worry about all the ways I thought it was supposed to look and feel (they were pretty much wrong), and just sit my butt on the pillow and do it. Even if it’s just 3 minutes. Heck, he even said that 1 minute was better than no minutes.
Sounds familiar. Seems like the greatest wisdom traditions have their their foundation the basic attitude that you just have to show up. If my mind is wandering all over the place while I sit, it’s just the kind of day I’m having. That’s all.
On one hand it kinda sucks that there’s no big secret to look forward to. On the other hand, it takes a lot of pressure off.
So as your mind starts to meander and wonder what you could be doing better, the place to start is to ask yourself if you are putting your butt on the pillow as often as it matters. Until that point, there is really no other question to answer.
A) 4 Rounds for pace
* rest exactly 2 minutes between rounds
* keep rounds within 10-15 seconds
B) 4 RFT
6 DL (65%)
8 Alt pistols
10 Pull ups (kipping OK)
AND COMING FRIDAY (CAP)
A) 3 RFT
B) For Quality Load (FQL) in 15 minutes
Heavy single Clean and Jerk
C) Back Squat 3×3 (+2 / +5)